to my dearest evonne,
it's been more than 2 years since we know each other and more than 1 year since i secretly have a crush on u. we have been through difficult times (mayb exams?) n sweet moments (erm, every outings?) tgt. and i jus wanna let u noe that i love u.
there are times that i wanna giv up. when the seperation of 2e5, i wrote a letter to change class to ur class but i fail. i accept reality n tat i shall forget bt u n focus on my studies. however, in the sec 3 life, i find it hard to forget bt u. instead i become more attach to u. trying to have ur attention. every posts on fb. every comment i had said on ur post. i dunno wat the heck i'm doing. i jus wanna to b wit u.
everytime i see u wit boys, esp fx, i feel so jealous. really jealous. often made me emo - sad n watever. i thought tat mayb i'm jus nt tat worth for u. fx would b a better choice. but my heart jus doesnt seem rite. i cant stand watching u 2 being so happy wit each other while i'm de one tat's suffering. mayb tat's wat's love.
i rmb how close we were during sec 2. (mayb not tat CLOSE) but at least we r able to relate our toubles wit each other. de support u gave me during de sec inter class capt ball game i'll nv forget. de show 'b&w' tat pulls us tgt, i'll nv forget. but wat happens? wat happen between us since sec 3?
r u avoiding me? r u? u giv me a feeling tat i'm a nuisance around u n tat always u would ignore my existence. (erm in sch). i duno y but i jus feel tat way. we have little subjects to talk abt or mayb it's jus tat i'm feeling awkward n shy. i have no guts. no guts to confess, no guts to accept rejection till now. i cant take it anymore. i have to say tis.
will u b my stead?
can i b someone tat would share ur troubles, ur sorrow, ur anger, ur watever u wanna tell me.?
can we be more than frens?
can we?
n will u giv me de chance?
n even if there's no chance at all, i'll still hope tat we r, still, best of best frens :D
n i wanna let u noe, no matter wat, i'll always b wit u. mentally, physically (sounds sick i noe), emotionally (when u,re happy, i'm happy, likewise, if u're sad, i'll be too)
love jie kai (arr... feel much better now after saying everything out :D)
